The ratio is 2:8 (Happiness:Suffering).
I can get rid of all those unwanted memories.
It's not like total despair, but more like a situation where the sufferings can be prolonged for an endless time.
In order to achieve that, I need to blend suffering with a little of ...happiness
I just, just WANT TO SEE their painful faces.
and I don't want to love them either.
Is not like I just wanna kill them...